A lot can change, a lot can happen. It's been a long year, and it seems like nothing went right. I feel like I'm a different person completely and I'm wondering if I like it that way or not. I guess its what happens in life. Life is change. I thought I was going to do way more, but it seems that I still don't know my own passions and what I really want. I wanted to keep drawing, but I haven't touched my sketch book for months. I wanted to go into art as I go through my college career, but as it turns out I'm going down a different path. I've made new friends, and ruined others, hardly see some, and hardly know most. Keeping friendships is getting complicated to do, and learning when I need to say screw you. I'm learning that I really don't like to be stepped on, or run over. I'm trying to make more of a stand. It just doesn't seem like my life is going anywhere I want it too, but I guess tomorrow is a new day. A new day for me. And we'll see where that goes. Where will my life go?

"After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there will be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again
And there will be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain"
Beauty from pain- Superchick

My sister has the words beauty from pain tattooed on her left shoulder in latin. Its one of those things that when you look back you understand why you did it. Why you had to get it done. Why she got those words.

"If I could have the time back, how I'd live
Life is such a gift
So how does the story end?
Well, this is your story and it all depends
So don't let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

We live, we love, we forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love."
We live- Superchick

I don't know... I'll just keep hoping, and trying to appreciate the little things and get by in my days with a smile and prayer. See where that takes me.